Most of my time now are spent on devotions, ministry, and God. I am in pursuit of something more. I know deep inside my heart i know him, but i want more. Like Tommy Tenney, i am not satisfied with just crumbs, i want the whole loaf itself. *For those who don’t understand, pls read God Chasers by Tommy Tenney* But most of these times that i spend with God are barren. How my heart aches when i don’t hear him speak to me. How lonely it feels when i don’t feel his presence being manisfested over my life. But little did i know that what i call barren, My Lord often calls fruitful. What i call wasteful, he often calls well spent. And that is why i started trusting in him even when i feel nothing. "On the days where accusation lurks over my head and all the voices of condemnation join forces against me, my weak heart overcomes him as i choose to believe what presently seems an absurdity. Because i know these moves his heart." What a powerful testimony spoken by Dana Candler, author of the Deep unto Deep. That is my position now in the Lord. I know that there are times when i don’t feel him when i call out to him. I may feel deserted and alone. But i choose to believe in him. For in my weakness he is strong. In my foolishness he is wise. Who can be against me when he is with me? My mission right now is to run deep unto deep in him. I may not understand everything that he has allowed in my life, but all i know is that he is pleased when i still praise him even if i still don’t see him. It is that, that he enjoys the most. Oh what wonderful imagery it is to see God smiling down on me. *Titter* I feel so in love. Because God’s love is not defined by just mere emotion. And by my small heart his great heart is conquered.
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